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دکتر شریعتی : «کلاس پنجم که بودم پسر درشت هیکلی در ته کلاس ما می نشست که برای من مظهر تمام چیزهای چندش آور بود ،آن هم به سه دلیل ؛ اول آنکه کچل بود، دوم اینکه سیگار می کشید و سوم - که از همه تهوع آور بود- اینکه در آن سن و سال، زن داشت. !... چند سالی گذشت یک روز که با همسرم ازخیابان می گذشتیم ،آن پسر قوی هیکل ته کلاس را دیدم در حالیکه خودم زن داشتم ،سیگار می کشیدم و کچل شده بودم

زن عشق می کارد و کینه درو می کند... دیه اش نصف دیه توست و مجازات زنایش با تو برابر....   می تواند تنها یک همسر داشته باشد و تو مختار به داشتن چهار همسرهستی ....    برای ازدواجش ــ در هر سنی ـ اجازه ولی لازم است و تو هر زمانی بخواهی به لطف قانونگذار میتوانی ازدواج کنی ...   در محبسی به نام بکارت زندانی است و تو ...  او کتک می خورد و تو محاکمه نمی شوی ... او می زاید و تو برای فرزندش نام انتخاب می کنی......او درد می کشد و تو نگرانی که کودک دختر نباشد ...   او بی خوابی می کشد و تو خواب حوریان بهشتی را می بینی    او مادر می شود و همه جا می پرسند   نام   پدر  

Nowadays I feel that I have really become a rift one in manner of course not physically, I think combating foe every details in working place private life street shops and anywhere to not losing our rights convert us to a very not predictable take an example if you stand in street to take a taxi and be a little polite simply you should stand up to midnight because no one concern that is your turn to take on and easily catch your turn ,in private life is you a little loosen your pocket you should pay all bills, shopping and even buy everything for yourself or family and of course should give service in all sides to family in low such as your or your husband auto, any fees  during any trip such as hotel, dinning ,,,,,,any weekends or during week arrange party till they enjoy every day you have duty to ask them by phone in every happens such as wedding or others should say congratulation or Condolence in other hand you and your husband should be in service to them because they haven't brought up this son spurious she has slept beside her husband ,she hasn't slept many nights up to morning because your husband had been ill ,to get service nowadays but don't forget that you as a women has grown up accidentally and never has been ill!!!!!!!!! , it's surprising isn't it? you should conflict about realities ! actually when we want to learn that we should do everything every action every operation by our interests not because they should be so, they should be done or the normal way is so,we should get married we should have children maximum after 2 years , and for future expectations ,when really we want to understand that we should unloose our husband our parents our children why our life is this so much related and depended to others please be more honest by yourself, yesterday morning I heard an example from Mohammad he said that in a foreign country there were 2 Iranian  friends that one of them had gone there many years ago and another has gone recently by help of that ancient friend he has employed in same company and every morning that first one had picked him up by his own car from his home and they went to work ,the first one has woken up every morning so early and they arrived to work before work starting time ,he has parked his auto the most far distance to entrance gate and they force to walk a long distance about 15 minutes although near to entrance gate has been many empty  parking places! One day the second man asked him why you do this and we have to walk this way? He answered it's about one hour earlier that working time starting we have enough time to receive there but maybe one person is asleep today morning or because of some problems can't come on time it's better to keep this park location empty for him or her even he or she doesn't have to run this distance in hurry and be late more than this, I don't say what a unselfish man I only say please think about your aims in driving, taxi taking, shopping,,,,,LIFE   

Next Sunday is our marriage anniversary, how much I have been changed is really surprising for myself ,today I had a comment from one of my classmates in high school I have added her weblog but today morning I went to class A1of Narjes high school these innocent girls are now mothers but that days we didn't expect such aspect for ourselves in near future because my office is so near to my high school (narjes is south of keshavarz blv I am working in same street but north of Keshavarz blv)may be this subject that my navel has been cut in Mostafa Khomeini hospital(in Italy street near to narjes)is true because where ever I go at last I come back to streets around my born hospital ,anyway I predict some guests for weekend its smell is hearing no problem once in a year we should be patient oh I forgot to say next weekend we are on a trip to shiraz although I have visited shiraz but because of Mohammad we will go for 3 days to there I will comeback whit some photos if God  wants too   

I am really boiling,wearing thick panto,scarf,trousers,closed and airproof shoes has changed this spring weather dying for us islamic women,today i talked to one of my friends that she is on a mission for 2 nights and really i can understand her feeling so well being far away from his 20 mounth yearsold daughter her husband and ofcorse in second step her parents ,again i doubted about trueness of our life method i really cant make any balance between private life and working situation ,when i am tired of sitting behind of my desk calculating,controling and wearing this black thick dresses i remember brain drain subject why really ourgoverment is this so much stupid why there is no tryness to keep people saticfied why nothing is related  to goverment anyway from another subject i was forced myself to unrelated matter ,i am veryglad that one of my old friend and classmates dear Anahita has started to read my weblog i really forward her comments,i really want to pass mylife in my own method i have really missed freedom but unfortunately in abroad we as a stranger aren't free i don't know what people of third world countries should really do

last week was really a relax date for me because of not being some bothering persons such as my colleage. as usual all office works go normaly but in calm position last wednesday i and mohammad went to digital camera and video recorders' fair it was really useful especially for whom they want to buy them ,flowers and green plants exibition is in goftegoo park too but as you know all people from various levels of society whit a home camera in hand are there and they are really serious to take a photo  no 1000 photo whit flowers especially from their sweet children and when untolarentable smell attack us from them i really asked myself do they really  upbringing plants in their house?i don't know why iranias think that they have right to go every where to do everything to saynyhow.  this kind of self confidency is really surprising another important matter is reading some special books 1.2 steps this side of line(2 ghadam invare khat) by ahmad poori 2 whit out hometown(bivatan) by reza amirkhani 3 piano cafe(kafe piano 4 asking is more important than answering(porsidan mohemtar az pasokh dadan ast i suggest you be calm my lovely friends

It's about 2 weeks that i have been familiar to a new apportunity that is called facebook,although very soon it will be filtered but now it's an apportunity,i found many of my university friend the nost important point in this matter is  destiny when i visit my friend that has been changed to a fat reall wife or mother instead of that thin innocent girl or vist their children i really wonder of such much similarity between them some of them are married some of them not most of them are  living broadcast ,,,,,when i think about men that suggested me to marry him and i refused by my that time taste ,did i know him as much as reasonable to refuse?and now they are studing PHD or working and living in other countries ,have i been lucky as their wifes now more than lucky that i am now? i really think that is my life  and what i am now my destiny or i have chosen it when i discuss on cheap subjects whit mohammad i think about all interesting books in enghelab bookshops that i haven't read ,all visiting places all over iran that i haven't visited, all things that i haven't done instead of this vain argument i could do and decide to investigate on more important matters but again i repeat my false really why some people can have such an effect on mylife  what a powerfull

Today i should be apathetic about what is happening in my office,i can't  content myself about my boss behavior and never let him to manner so ,may be he's angry  or wroth from others but it's non of my bisiness he should control himself anyway Today i am really apathetic about him if i don't fear  of losing my job i don't assimilate whit him ,but i bileive that we never lose anything or anyone till we fear of losing it,fear causes less and shortage of anything anyway today i am going to my parents now i say i have missed them alot and i am really worry about suviniors i am sure that they are tight  for me but i have really decided  to lose my overwight,good luch my dear friends

Hi dear friends,today my parent are coming back from Germany but i really haven't missed them do you know why because i reaaly don't feel anything of time passing ,although i am near to my job and other conditions haven't changed  but everyday passes faster than yesterday,some mornings i don't say hello to my colleges because i think i have told them and when they say hello i am really ashamed i relly miss to go to park and walking to pass my time or reading or ,,,,, but bileve me that i can't

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