خاله ساناز

برخیز به خون دل وضویی بکنیم
در آب ترانه شستشویی بکنیم
عمر اندک و فرصت خموشی بسیار
تلخ است سکوت، گفتگویی بکنیم

All of us are afraid of being alone,when i was a teenager  always i urged to stay alone in home and i didn't feel anything but nowadays i am really frightened of being alone ,i miss my parents my brother and sister my nephews and ,,,, every time that i meet my father i feel he has become elder and fear of losing him really make me depress i have become so sensetive about my family my causins  i call them and invite them to go out i am crying so much that every morning i feel pain in my eyes i think all of these signs are depression start, i really need a psycologist to for talking and taking a solution i want to go out whit my mother for shopping ,hug her kiss her you know they don't have such a reaction about me they are engaged and busy by their own life i feel dependence  to them i call my mother up to 3 times a day and every time up to 30 minutes talking most of the times my mother laughs me that why i have called again but bileve me that i miss her my husband when sees me whit teared eyes he shocks and thinks there is really a serious problem and when i say there is nothing he thinks that i don't tell the truth but i don't have any reason for my tears ,every one that knows a good psyclogist please guide me

Today morning i don't know why but i am hopefull,why always we search for a reason for our feels ,the reason isn't important the effect is good,anyway i am worry about one of my best friends who is sick and has caught cold i really miss her and really want to see her,hug her she is more than a friend for me she is a sister whit 2 hearing ears and ofcourse cool and calm sulotions for me i hope to have a same role for her i pray she gets better soon,yesterday i talked to one of my colleagues who has a same condition in life like me  maybe she causes this hopefullness for me thank you dear friend

صبح به صبح که از هم خداحافظی می کنیم من با خودم فکر می کنم مثل قطره ای در یک ظرف قیر مذاب حل شدیم ،از پنجره خونمون شهر مثل یک محلول غلیظ گرم بنظرم می آد اما صبحهایی که من خودمو می زنم بخواب و اونم بدون خداحافظی میره اون یک قطره هم بخار شده رفته هوا ،من نمی فهمم توی زندگی چی از همه مهمتره ؟ولی یه سری چیزا یه سری کسا چرا اینقدر روح آدم رو بهم میریزه؟بگذریم چون می دونم خودم باید حل کنم و کسی به من کمکی نمی کنه !از تایلند بگم که خیلی جالب بود دنیایی کاملاً جدید متفاوت قیافه های جدید فرهنگ جدید غذاهای جدید دین جدید روی کره زمین چه خبره؟